I have never been happier or more grateful than I am now 😊🙏🏻
Two years ago, I didn’t realize that one of the best things happened to me.
Two years ago, I was two weeks out from competing in a half Ironman. I was arguably in the best shape of my life. Two years ago, I couldn't have worked out or enjoyed laying in the grass like I did today. Two years ago, I accidentally walked in front of a (not slow moving) truck.
My bumps and bruises healed, but I went into a “slump”. I couldn’t workout and working out was part of my identity and my vice. It was also my job. Then, I started getting 50’s on midterms in my fourth year of university (one of the most important semesters for the post-grad program I was applying to). I didn’t realize until looking back, but I couldn’t focus to study or to write exams. Somewhere in there, I started eating poorly. I lost my zesty motivation. I also lost a handful of clients because I just couldn’t be a good coach. I often sat on the couch watching Netflix instead of taking care of my responsibilities or socializing. I was discouraged, disappointed and overwhelmed, for what felt like no reason...
Little did I realize (my parents told me), these were symptoms - concussion symptoms. A light bulb went off and a huge weight of guilt and shame was lifted. I finally had a logical answer for my personality that had be so unusual for the last 4 months.
It was at this point I started to reflect internally. I only began to realize that my identity wasn’t what my job was or what I went to school for or even what other people knew me for. My identity was in myself, it was how I interacted with people, how I made others feel and how I felt about myself. It was at this point that I began to start mentally recovering from my accident.
In December 2017 I solidified my life's purpose (to help others), I met an indescribably amazing man, I applied to schools even though I didn’t meet all the grade requirements (I got accepted) and life was pretty cool again. Now, two years later, I am so grateful for my life. I have grown into who I am. I am closer to my family, I respect my body, mind and soul so much more, I have learned to love and trust more, I workout because I love it and I eat the food I love, I do things that make me feel my best and I am the happiest and most grateful I have ever been!
If the greatest blessing of my life did not happen, if I was not hit by that truck, I know I would not be in this amazing state that I am now. I know I would not have met my love and his loving family, I know I would not have created deeper and more meaningful relationships with my family and close friends, I know I would not be who I am today! Sometimes it takes a lot to become you - your true you. We all have a story. My story made me who am I and I am so thankful for it.
All my love and gratitude go to my amazing support system, thank you.